gained some wisdom but lost a tiny piece of my heart

m starting to wonder whether i'm unreasonable.

y does it seems like i'm the only one who's anxious about things, changes etc

seems to hv problem communicating my thoughts to him as he dun think that my concerns are justifiable...is it just a matter of seeing things from different perspective? m i worrying too much like he said?

But it is true that there are differences in behaviour and attitude, but could they just be another passing phase?

I was told that what's most important is his heart and that i should know what lies in his heart...do i or do i not...feeling confused...as much as i know he loves me dearly as a sister, sometimes his actions speak otherwise...no reply to my sms, we r not talking as much these days..etc...all these little things that girls would notice but guys probably would not notice or simply shrug it off.

all i ask for is simply reassurance, be more patient and open with me...is that too much to ask for? but i was told that being expressive is not a daily thing and at times when it happens, it is coz he was in the right mood to. I hope i din interpret wrongly but this is so hurting. doesn't it all come from his heart....why is it dependent on mood...shouldn't it be geniune?

y can't he try seeing things from my perspective...i know he's upset with my qns and doubts and i can understand why he is upset....so why can't he understand where i'm coming from...

sometimes i wonder whether this will go anyway...maybe soon we will simply drift apart like all frens do.....mayb its my fault that i dun trust him enuf...the sense and fear of loss is simply too great.

perhaps its not a blessing to be close to me...perhaps i just cannot bring myself to trust another person...perhaps i'm just too afraid of changes and people leaving...

where did the trusting Maddy go...=.. (